Go Shorty Its Your Birthday

So this past weekend birthdaycon 09 went down and I celebrated my 22nd birthday.So I know most people every year on their birthday's or new years comes out with that gay ass cliche like new year new me but seriously I'm not even going to be on some sh*t like that its me every year deal with it bitch




It was a nice small celebration with a group of very near and dear friends. I've realized the older I get that I don't need to be club hopping til 4 in the morning to have a good time besides I'm old now my body can't handle all that cause if I do I may fuck around and look like our little friend below

&& at 22 idk about you but I don't really believe its acceptable to look this way I mean I'm grown now sheesh besides its all fun in games till your fully dressed in a tub and your friends have incriminating pics of you up on facebook right?

But overall it was a good birthday dinner. Great weather, good food, good company and good conversation and shout outs to our waitress for giving us all a free round of birthday shots i don't know what exactly she gave us but this little things below was delish. I mean what more could a girl ask for

Food For Thought

So during my many free hours I find myself ramdomly coming across articles and websites that give me food for thought so I figured I share some of many quotes and passages with you hopefully they will make think they say way they did me

• Learn the art of patience. Apply discipline to your thoughts when they become anxious over the outcome of a goal. Impatience breeds anxiety, fear, discouragement and failure. Patience creates confidence, decisiveness, and a rational outlook, which eventually leads to success. --Brain Adams
• You're alive. Do something. The directive in life, the moral imperative was so uncomplicated. It could be expressed in single words, not complete sentences. It sounded like this: Look. Listen. Choose. Act. --Barbara Hall
• Beloved, take the time and be quiet enough to gain a fresh perspective of where you have been and where you are now before I lead you out to your next point of destiny. It is important that you see the past, not as a place of defeat, but as a place of experiential growth and victory. You have come through a lot and are stronger because of the struggle. This strength will serve you well in upcoming challenges, and the wisdom you have gained will undergird your confidence to overcome, says the Lord. --Marsha Burns

Culture Shock

FUCK you pussy ass hater you should do you...you ain't heard of HIM you should go && get a blue's clue

So if you don't know who this I'm going to need you to GET FAMILIAR ASAP

So I had the honor this past friday to bask in the glory that is Drake Drizzy Rodgers aka My Future Baby Daddy at Suny Purchase's culture shock && if it was any indication of wat T.Dot 09 is going to be Canada please be prepared cause we are going in

Now back to the show I must say hip hop world please be prepared cause this kid is going to be a problem and his getting groomed by weezy so I think we all know what that means he's something to look out for. I'm just glad that I was able to see him before he becomes

super jaded.

Overall the performances was popping, he had the new talent not use to the stage aura going one which was quite sexy I must say... so kudos to you Drake

Insomniac Theater

So lately I haven't been able to sleep && honestly I don't know why, I mean granted

• not having a job,
• being unable to pay for school &&
• wondering what I plan on doing with my life

poses some concerns but none of these things are what's crosses my mind while I lay in the dark late at nite RATHER I am plagued by the feeling that there are certain bridges that I may have burned to soon

now I'm a TAURUS which means I'm clearly stubborn as hell, like the saying goes you fuck with the bull you get the horns but what am I do when the ghost of my pass haunt my nights on a continuous basis

I've looked at it from a spiritual point of view and from a philosophical stand point as well but with conflicting ideas what am I suppose to do make a mense or fuck it keep moving

I guess until I decide on a solution I can continue to do what I do best let music be my savior & let the words of the track play out the story of my life and the greatest soundtrack there is...

Cause quite frankly THIS HERE is on some truthful shit

Some of the SONGS that soothe my madness

• Drake - Brand New
• Justin Timberlake - Losing My Way
• Adele - Chasing Pavements
• Christina Aguilera - Mercy On Me
• Paramore - Pressure
• Eminem - Til I Collaspe
• && of course The Fray can always make me feel some type of way

Oh I'm sorry...

but when did being a groupie become a reputable job?



So during one of my many late night conversations with lite brite I stumbled across this little jewel && its like when did being a groupie become an a job to strive for?

Don't keep me wrong I'm all for female sexual empowerment && I think females should be more comfortable with their sexuality but when you start to exploit that to get shine it becomes slutty. I know a lot of people out there are trying to get their 15 mins but ladies there is a def a better way to go about it. A lot of people want to put the blame on hip hop society but that's not the only place to lay blame.

not ALL Hip Hop exploits woman && not ALL women respect themselves

&& I'm not trying defend any athlethe or rapper cause as we all know them niggas do some skevvy sh*t but is it really fair to put these dudes on blast because he didn't throw you a little change no...Men have feelings to && I'm pretty sure ladies if you were a celebrity and some dude was on a website talking about how you weren't so fresh down there or how wack your head game was you'd be pissed to. Give these men some respect && have a little respect for the situation and may if been a one night stand but what if there was potential there and you ruined it with your big ass mouth.

BUT on some real sh*t ladies we need to teach younger females that there's more out there cause when you 10 year old is begging to get her belly button periced && she's dropping it like its hot are you going to tell her the story of how you sucked Rick Ross off in a night club or are you going to sit her down and teach the true power she posses not just with her body...I'm pretty sure your going to pick option number 2, so if she's better than that why aren't you?

[DUECES]

Who's Real?

He's PHONY...She's FAKE...those the type of people I hate

Oh Jada how you speak to the soul

So since I have so much time on my hand I've had ample oppurtunity to reevaluate my realationship with people who I thought to believe staples in my life && its like no matter how much your on your sh*t your still going to have silent haters on your team. Like don't get it twisted i'm all about my star player

refer to katt williams it's pimpin pimpin if you need to learn how to get in touch with your star player


BUT its like how do you determine who's really riding at all cost and who as hidden agendas, I MEAN I have been told I have a "bad attitude" && I mean I do have the tendency to be rather rude && stank but when people around are such salty because the see their own flaws and can't compliment you on being on you a-game your going to ocassionally throw shade. Like I've been trying really hard in the 09 to change bad behaviors && grow as individual but you truly see who your friends are. Misery truly loves company && a silent hater loves nothing more than to point out when your not doing something right but I'm trying can you say that I THINK NOT.

[DUECES]

PS- A NEW SEASON OF THE HILLS IS ON THE HORIZON